The tale of two boys

Matty shrugged "you did what you had too" he said quietly.

Max shook his head "Ididnt have to."

"Yes you did, it got you were you were today" Matty said flipping the page.

Max looked at him confused "which is where?"

"Popular,jock, all the lady's love you, getting a scholarship to collage to play....I normally sit next to the scouts when I come to the games if I can get out and they like you"

"I'm only popular for my looks, there's no point in all the ladies loving me if Idont want any of them. And i could've gotten a scholarship if you were my friend still. " max explained softly.

"Maybe....it just depends" Matty said flipping through his book again "because if we were still friends you wouldn't be on te football team because they wouldn't let you. Just like they don't let me on track. And sorry max you would not be getting one for grades. " he sighed. "You would probably end up moving away and getting a minimum wage job because you any afford to go to collage. Like me"

Max came over a little closer and said "they'd still let me on the football team, and then id get good money and we'd share an apartment, so if you didn't want to you didn't have to get a crap job, and I could help you go to college"

"You don't get it Max if I was never Gay none of this would have happened. It is my fault so stop trying to make it yours" he said glancing up at him.

Max looked at him and said "It's not a choice so it's not your fault. I choose to be a dick. You, you didn't choose to be gay. I've known that. I've always known that. I just didn't know what to do when I found out the guy that I've slept in the same bed with is gay, it was just a shock. It's not your choice and you shouldn't beat yourself up over it."

"Yeah you should know that I checked you out a lot too" Matty smirked a bit and looked back to his book. "But I don't anymore"

Max blushed and quietly stuttered "M-matty w-what would you s-say if I-I wasn't and never have been s-sure that I was st-straight?"

"I would say that it is possible, I mean you did hang out with me a lot, could have rubbed off. but if you aren't sure you might want to see a guy naked, it is a lot different then a girl, I have only seen one guy naked though...and never a women" he said scratching his head.

Max bit his lip and mumbled "I-I have. b-both."

"Well seeing me naked when we were little does not count" MAtty said shaking his head.

Max nodded "I know. But you forget I'm in football. The locker rooms and get a bit odd." he said quietly

"Oh...I am not aloud to change in front of people I have to stay in the bathroom until everyone is done..." Matty looked at him. "Have you ever experimented.

Max looked at him curiously "What do you mean?"

"Like watched any guy on guy, read anything see if you get turned on. Or have you ever slept with a guy"

"Of course not." Max blushed oftly and looked away. He normally wasn't uncomfortable or embarrassed but this topic got to him easily. "w-well d-does watching a guy jerk off mean anything?"

"Well yeah, that is technically considered porn" Matty smirked. "Just live action. But anyway did you enjoy watching it?"

Max looked away, unable to meet his eyes, or say anything.

"I am going to take that as a yes. If you still find insterest in girls I would say you are bisexual....if not then....I don't know how to tell you but you might be gay. It is a might though you could just be confused"

Max went and sat on the floor beside where Matty was sitting and pulled his knees up to his chest.

"The only way to know for sure is to experiment with someone" Matty said putting book down. "You could read fanfiction.....then you can just delte it and no one would know.